I am so excited to have you join our wee family earthside. It’s almost time! I trust your timing and my body’s timing will align and soon, very soon, I will hold you in my arms, Daddy will shower you with kisses (and I can’t ask for a better Daddy for you) and your sister will sing you endless songs (you are probably used to her songs by now.)
I have to admit I’ve been a little nervous having to go through all the newborn-baby phase again because 1. Poop! and 2. I had a real hard time with your older sister. It was a fiery initiation of sorts that I wasn’t prepared for, yet it totally transformed me in the best way possible. I burned through old identities I didn’t want to let go of, but it was so good for me.
I feel like a different person from who I was 7 years ago. I can barely recognize her.
I feel more at home with my body now. I know how to come back home to my center when I start to feel lost (and I am prone to get lost dear one, because I am apt to wander.) I understand and love who I am as a woman more than I did seven years ago, which makes me a more relaxed and intuitive and present mama, I think. I second guessed myself so much then. I still have days I lose my confidence because, damn, parenting has a way of doing that. But thanks to your sister, I trust myself more. Which is a very good thing.
I always have believed that motherhood is a spiritual practice and I think that you, dear one. have new things to teach me. That or I just need to learn all that stuff I thought I already learned in a deeper way. Maybe you will help me etch these lessons in my bones and I. in turn, will help you be who you are especially on days you forget.
So until then, rest comfortably in my womb little one. You have everything you need in there, just as you will when you come out here. You are always loved, always supported and always welcomed just as you are. Nothing, and I mean, nothing, will ever change that.