So lately, I’ve been focusing my energies on three things:
- working on dismantling my internalized racism/anti-blackness (yes even as a NBPOC, I have also been conditioned towards implicit bias towards whiteness and the work never stops)
- loving myself, taking care of myself and my family and reconnecting with my Filipino roots before colonization had colorized and Christianized our way of life and
- working on identifying and weaving my gifts and how I can be of real service in creating alternative realities to these g-dd-mn systems.
I’ve been learning a lot about my own fragility, my own tendency towards saviourism, my capacity to posture and be performative in how I show up for those who are more marginalized than I. I’ve seen how I can co-opt struggles that are not mine in my attempts to show solidarity. It’s easy to fall into.
Again, the work never stops. We keep waking up over and over because there’s always something new to learn about ourselves and each other.
Through this, I have gained a bit more empathy for those who struggle with wanting to show up but unsure how. I’ve taken to heart that I can be just as complicit in someone’s oppression as the next person. We all share this ability as human beings. Just as we share this capacity to choose humility, understanding, empathy and radical love.
I’m learning how to examine my own oppression more clearly while also practicing deep gratitude about the privileges I hold and that has helped me be where I am today. I know that the clearer I am about both, the more I know how to show up in ways that are more authentic and in alignment to love and justice. Knowing who I am at the core and honoring my boundaries are also both essential to sustainable activism.
I’m still angry about a lot of things. And I am still following the news. And doing what I can to resist.
But I also know that my resistance needs to be rooted in deep self-love and knowledge, in real solidarity, in humility, in continual learning and growth.
I was all about Fire element the past few months, raging and ready to burn everything down. But Fire alone is not enough. We need to ground ourselves deep into Earth wisdom, swim in the intuitive depths of Water and gain clearer insight as we take a higher perspective, a birds eye view if you will, with the Air element.
Slow. Steady. Soulful. Strategic.
We’ve got this.
PS Print show above is available in my shop.