Magic Making Mondays: Where we talk about beginnings, blank pages, seedlings, expansions, starting anew! And so I start Mondays with sharing with you my weekly intentions and today, I also talk about the art of shrinking.
Please excuse the blurriness of this photo! But I asked God/Universe for guidance about the coming new moon. I’ve been hitting some blocks that I couldn’t wrap my mind around and wanted to connect to my deeper intuition and Divine wisdom so get to the bottom of my stucky-ness. Sometimes I lead with my logic when I try to solve problems but someone once said:
“The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.”
And I totally agree.
So onward with the reading. Maybe you’ll get something out of it too.
First card is the 8 of Pentacles. The second card is the Son of Wands. The third card is the 5 of Swords. And it was a powerful warning for me as I weave my life as an unschooling/homeschooling mama and pursuing my soul-centered business.
That warning is this: Watch out for your tendency to self-sabotage! As I try to weave the web of home and business and pursue my dreams, I really to be very honest with my weaknesses that derail me and sometimes, hurt the people around me.
The first card, 8 of pentacles is a beautiful card. The spider, which symbolizes wisdom, creation, birth & destruction, is in the center of the picture weaving a web that will serve as her home, her source of nourishment as well as an egg incubator. I think of the web I am creating – this business that I desire to bring us financial independence so we can truly create the family life we want and help the people we care about. I am clear about my why and my what and it’s how I keep going – I am the SPIDER.
The second card is Son of Wands. Last week, I drew Daughter of Wands. And so immediately, I thought okay I am progressing in terms of pursuing my creative ambitions. I’m not such a beginner really – with several years of working out this struggle in my life. I’m entering perhaps the next of phase of embodying the Fire element in my business. Sweet.
And then, there is the last card: I see a worm cut in half, a lone sword in the middle with 2 swords lying on the each side. I get the sense of disconnection from one self, self-destruction of swords, feeling torn and divided. This has become the main challenge of my life the past 4 years that I’ve been trying to weave home and work: torn and divided.
The last card cuts deep and that’s what swords do. We have to bleed first sometimes to get clarity. Last week, my word was TEMPERANCE and I need continue to bring in that word in my consciousness this week as I WEAVE.
Usually, when I get a “negative” card, my impulse is to dismiss it but it’s a really great and timely reminder for me. Don’t avoid the swords in your life – clarity can hurt but it can also lead us to amazing shifts.
Practically, how I want to embody these insights this week:
- Create a ritual for the weekend, particular Sunday so I can make the shift into REST. I need an absolutely-no-work day. It’s not easy for me to let go of thinking about my business and believing that less is more. And I end up bringing conflict with the family when I do that. One of the things I can do is to just have the crockpot on for the whole damn weekend so we can eat well without a whole lot of input from me!
- Community: I tend to be a lone spider and I tend to self-isolate when I start to feel a little stress from all the weaving I do. Or sometimes, I over-rely on my husband who is always supportive of what I am doing. I have been feeling such a craving for community but it’s challenging to create your own community without church or school! I have been working on building our community for the past few years but every year, the families we’ve been able to start a relationship with end up moving! So we are talking about going back to church! But it just has to be a church that doesn’t give me a headache and a heartache if my Sundays are going to feel nourishing. I’m still working on figuring out what we really want in terms of community. For now, I just now I need it.
- Seek more support from other women. Also, I need more girl-power in my life! Someone reached out to me on my Instagram and it turns out there is a group of women meeting for a monthly circle here in Seattle. I missed this month’s gathering but this is one possibility. I’ve loved online connections but I am craving for flesh-to-flesh! Tomorrow, I have a few women coming over for a Make and Take gathering in my home – we’ll be making Bath Bombs together while our children play. It’s a start.
- Nurturing my life even more during stressful times. I’m usually pretty good at this until I get stressed out over something major I am creating. I am a great starter and it’s BIG WORK for me to finish. So I want to take care of myself even more daily ESPECIALLY when I am in creating mode. This is one lesson I have learned over the years – I gotta keep the well overflowing.
Whew. That’s it! And now a short word about shrinking….I actually just want to share with you a link that really helped me shift my thinning about shrinking. I often get discouraged when I feel like I take 3 steps forward 2 steps back. I hate the feeling of shrinking back to my old ways and old mindsets because it makes me feel like a failure. But I need to remember the spiral – that sometimes, we circle back to what we thought we have learned because we need to take it deeper into our bodies and experience. And so when we expand, we have to shrink to continue expanding.
Here, Danielle LaPorte explains is more eloquently. Check out her post here.
That concludes our Magic-Making Monday! (I totally missed Saturday Revue but that’s okay, still learning to weave my new blog schedule into my life! I’ll make it up next Saturday.)