Since last year, I’ve been growing and deepening my awareness and connection to my monthly cycle. I’ve noticed that I’m more keenly in touch with the shift in my energy throughout the month that I now can tell when the moon is waxing or waning just by listening to my body. I compare this to how clueless of where I was in my cycle a few years back before I became a mother, and I know I have learned much. Not that I would have cared back then, because I grew up not knowing the importance of any of this to a woman’s life, wholeness and spirituality.
The first 30+ years of my life, spirituality was all about coming home to a prescribed set of beliefs. dogma. tradition. written authority that had little insight for a woman’s body, cycles, psyche, soul.
When I became a mother, I thought motherhood would trump everything else in my life. I really wanted it to. I adore motherhood and making a home. I deeply value the domestic life for all the practical and poetic inspiration it brings in my everyday. And yet I have noticed that my alignment to the maternal energies that I so want to be consistent in my life waxes and wanes much like the moon.
I’ve noticed that I’m naturally maternal for a period of several days during my ovulation, right before my enchantress self comes out and starts to pull me more inward bearing gifts of esoteric dreams and visions. I start to slow down and get really restless all at once, wanting to pack up my suitcase and hop on a plane again to another country and escape. I get easily irritable that it takes a lot of energy to be as patient as I would be in my maternal phase. I am drawn to watch a lot of movies, the kind that speaks truth. I get more emotional.
And then just before my period, I kid you not, I get this urge to re-organize my house and re-arrange our furniture or throw away old stuff. Re-fresh the look on my blog. A reminder that it’s time to let go of things again. Release. Surrender.
And just then, my dark hag shows up and invites me into the dark chambers of my soul and everything that I have successfully buried deep manages to resurface. I get more clarity about who I am and what I really want a little bit more each time.
And then I’m back to being a young maiden, gifted with a new kind of energy and another opportunity to become who I am and craft my life towards the life I am discovering I truly want. I’m more of a fun mom, eager to go an playful adventures as I go about my bold ambitions.
This. This is the life of a woman.
If every woman knew how to harness the different energies in her body depending on where she is in their cycle, I am willing to bet we will all be happier, content and crazy excited about life. But as it is, so many of us (myself included!) get particularly bitchy without a cause instead of going with the flow (excuse the pun) and embrace this amazing gift we have to birth-die-rebirth different aspects of our lives every month.
So I’m letting you in on a secret that may possibly change the way you live as a woman and a mama and it’s this:
You get to sort of start over all the time.
Instead of waiting for the new year, you always have the new moon each month as a means to craft your life in ways that finally honor your feminine.
Because within you is something dying to be born.
Isn’t it time you make space for whatever it is?
I want to hear. How well are you in touch with your moon cycle? Do you notice the different energies as I’ve shared above? How has it changed the way you live and parent?