…I feel ease in my skin, a confident knowing in my bones, a tingling wakefulness to who I am now and who I am becoming.
…I feel greater freedom to write on my i-Phone and share my thoughts via Facebook. Perhaps it feels like it’s not officially writing so I do not face the same blocks I often struggle with when I am looking at a blank screen on my laptop or a fresh page on my notebook. I’m simply “updating my status” after all and there is freedom to be vulnerable and be silly and imperfect and who cares if my commas are not where they should be! But it all leads me to my craving to write MORE and not less. So here I am, writing and sharing and hitting that damn publish button.
…I feel extremely blessed and thankful for the life I lead while keeping my eye steadfast on my sacred ambitions. Today, I feel a kind of contentment that I didn’t know can exist alongside my deep desires and big dreams. All here. Present. Feet grounded. But leaping and twirling to creating my future life.
..I feel unusually positive and cheerful these days, it’s so NOT LIKE me. Maybe my gratitude practice is paying off. Maybe I’m just not eating a whole lot of sugar these days. Or maybe my Joyful Essential Oil Blend is indeed doing its magic on me. Or all of the above. I want this kind of magic everyday, please.
…I also feel my moodswings match the weather in Seattle. Pure sunshine and cheer one minute. Morose and rainy the next. I feel the collective hurt from all the painful ways we try to survive and it’s always too much to bear. I just want to hole up and hibernate and disappear until the healing is done and we have all come out on the other side, standing in the sun together. Darkness is nothing new to me – I embrace the darkness and the wisdom she has to offer. But this collective pain feels like a different kind of dying and I don’t know how to brace myself for it. So I trust. Because it’s the only thing left to do.
….are nothing like before and nothing that will happen again.
So I stop and thank these days for unfolding just the way they do.