(Monday Morning, Beautiful Mamas! First, if you are new here, I want to warmly welcome you! If I can give you a warm cup of virtual tea, please make yourself comfy. My hope is that you find bits and pieces of your heart and soul here. Also, I decided to extend the Nia Extravaganza Giveaway until Thursday! More time for other mamas to join in the fun! I’ll announce the winner on Friday – and then we’ll have another giveaway on again! Oh yeah!)
I was up at the crack of dawn, fully awake and lying in bed, wondering what time it was. Across from me was my husband, out cold from a full week of work and fatherhood and dealing with my dark side that comes out every month. And between us, was my little girl soundly asleep. I caught myself staring at her sweet sweet face, oblivious to mama’s tears streaming down in gratitude for the gift of motherhood, of marriage, of family.
I got my notebook out, knowing that on those blank pages, miracles and truth will be revealed shortly.
The first word: Desires. The second? Pleasure. And the third word: Motherhood.
I then wrote: What do I desire most for my little girl?
And then, a voice whispered softly in my heart: You must give it to yourself first.
A Sure Knowing that this is the truth I needed to hear right that very moment.
What I want most for her is to be free. To be deeply rooted in her True Self. To be fully alive in her Feminine Body and Spirit. To own her brilliance in serving the world. To find her place among kindred sisters.
And I realize that these are the very things my own soul longs for. Everyday.
A lot of parents try to give their kids the life they never had.
I don’t want that.
What I want is to give my child a mom who is living the life she desires most, the life that turns her on and lights her up. And in giving myself that, I inevitably give her exactly the same thing. She will get to see what it’s like to be a woman coming home fully to her appetites and desires (and know they are fully righteous and wholly true), to her body and Bliss and Brilliance. And she will get to choose that for herself when she is ready because she’s experienced it embodied at home.
Instead of her mama choosing it for her because mama never got to.
We both win.
And so does the whole world.
What about you? What do you desire most for your children? Do you give that to yourself? Please, do share! I would love to hear! And if you haven’t yet, don’t forget to subscribe to my bi-weekly newsletter! Xo,Vina